Continuing the long running log of the personal Collapse of my meat package, yesterday I received my Approval of my application for Medicaid assistance from the state of Alaska, which serves as my secondary Insurance to federal Medicare and together fully cover about all my major med expenses like the quite expensive operations and extended hospital stays I have had for the last 8 years or so, since my work accident took me out of the working world in 2015. It's also the coverage that pays the exorbitant monthly charges racked up if you reside in a Skilled Nursing Facility (SNF,pronounced "sniff") or Assisted Care Living (ACL)gulag (pronounced "ackle").
Price for my current monthly SNF abode is 16K, of which up to now 15K of which has been paid by Medicare & Medicade combined, splitting the cost for $7500 each. Now however they no longer consider me disabled enough to require a SNF, and I am switched to the Medicaid Waver program. In this program, they determine your Monthly contribution to your care by subtracting $200 from whatever your total monthly SS and Pension is and that is what you pay for your living situation, and Medicaid pays the rest. So from now until I find a new abode, I am left with just $200/mo spending money.
Now, the ACL cost around here runs cheaper than SNFs, between around $6000/mo for the cheapest dumps to $8500 for the ritzier ones. The thing is, there is no benefit to me to leave here where it costs $16K even to go to the cheapest ACK, because I still would be left with just $200/mo. So, I won't leave here to go to another ACL gulag, and they can't kick me out until I have alternative housing and a daily health care assistant lined up.
So I am now hunting for a house or apartment in Anchorage I can afford, which for me is around $1200/mo or less. I could go more if utilities are included. Currently the apt rental market is pretty tight for 1 bedrooms, but what I am now looking for is a 3-4 bedroom house to share with a CNA here I am friends with. She has 2 kids and a boyfriend, currently wedged into a 2 bedroom apt. Together, we can afford the market rate for McMansions, going for 2-3K/month. The tough part here is finding a place which is wheelchair accessible, or can be made so without too much cost.
I also applied for Cook Inlet Housing, which is a Native run corporation but the housing is open to anyone 62 and older and/or disabled, aka me. Rent is on a sliding scale dependent on your income, I should come in around $1000/mo. Problem here is a long wait list estimated at 6-18 months. I have been on it for 3 so far.
The good newz here is I am pretty safe from becoming a HHS anytime soon; bad newz is that until I do find new digs I have only $200/mo spending money, which is impossibly low for me. So I'll be eating into my savings until I find a place. I do expect pressure from Medicaid at some point to move out of here to a cheaper ACL until I find an independent living situation, I don't think they want to keep coughing up the 13K or so difference to keep me lodged here now that Medicare will not pick up half the bill. I'll report if I start getting any pressure of that sort as time goes by here.
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Quote from: Knarf on Aug 04, 2023, 05:58 AMIt is always interesting for me to read your posts. Having played the monk game has worked about the same for me. I have $6000 in the bank and only get $700 from SS. I developed acute Peripheral Neuropathy a couple years ago. I am in pain 24/7 and fatigue and sleep problems...I will be 71 next month. Collapse is an appropriate word for how my meat package is. I probably will be gone before the "great culling". I sure hope the aliens land, and force change on the Homo Saps. Maybe I can get my head frozen when I die and they can clone me in 2400, for a day, no more....back to eternal ?.
Great to hear from you Knarf!
Peripheral Neuropathy is also among my numerous meat package problems, and I have similar pain and sleep issues. I'm 5 years your junior at 66, but the work accident accelerated my physiological progress toward my voyage to the Great Beyond so we are more or less in the same condition. Of course I am also missing one leg which limits my mobility, but I have a good electric wheelchair and outdoor electric scooter, so I can get around OK as far as I need to, which is not much,
I find little reason to leave my small room, which I have nicely set up with my computers, a big screen TV and my electric recliner, which I sit in when not rolling around the facility on my wheelchair. I sleep in it also insofar as I sleep, which is only for a couple of hours at a stretch a couple of times a day. I get 3 meals a day delivered to the room, and the food while not great is edible about 1/3 of the time. I supplement this food with food I buy at Fred Myer and keep in a small fridge like in a college dorm room. In fact the room is just about the same size as my old collegge dorm rooms. The girls are not as attractive however, not even the young Filipina CNAs. lol.
I also get delivered every 4 hours or so some kind of meds on my list of pharmacopaea, which includes stool softeners to make for easier shitting and a statin to keep the cholesterol level down, as well as the Pain meds of course. They recently referred me out to a Pain Clinic, because the in house supervising doctor wanted to offload the responsibility of prescribing opiates. Not good for his licensing record or malpractice insurance. I was getting oxycodone 10mg and 1000mg tylenol 3X/day which was controlling the pain pretty well, but the pain doctor dropped me to 7.5mg oxy/850mg tylenol and added 500mg Lyrica 2X day for nerve based pain. This stuff is good for the neuropathy based pain, you should ask your doc about it if you are not already taking it. Doesn't help me though with my other pain source coming from the circulation problems in my remaining leg. Need the opiates for that, and next visit with the pain doc I will be pushing to get back to 10mg or get my dose 4X/day.
I also doubt I'll be around for the great HS population knockdown, at least in the FSoA, but I do hope to remain above ground long enough to see the collapse of the monetary and banking system, and see what follows it to keep the elites in power a while longer. I'm not too hopeful of a cavalry style rescue by Aliens dropping into our solar system from hyperspace in the nick of time.
Anyhow. keep us updated on life in the monastery and how the Show Me state is holding up to climate change. ;D
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I got no relief from Gabapentin. As nerve blockers go, the Lyrica works better, Medical Weed doesn't work for me either. Never tried Kratom, no ifra where I would get it.
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Latest newz on moving out, the folks who said they were interested in sharing a house have backed out. This does not surprise me, quite often the folks in the care giver biz will tell an oldster what they think they want to hear, or make promises they don't think they will ever have to keep. When the time comes and it becomes real, the tide runs out and they are revealed to be swimming naked.
So now I'm back to looking for 1 or 2 bedroom places in my price range, and this could take a while. My big challenge right now is to curb my appetites and stop spending money on ice cream, brownies, deli meats and cheeses to supplement the yucky food they serve here and cancerettes. I'm going to enjoy this last month until my birthday on August 31st and then do my best to cut back to the $200/mo they let me keep for pocket money.
Any Diners want to send me a birthday present, you can send me some cancerettes. Marlboro Black 100s. I'll send you the address in a PM if you are feeling so generous. :)
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OK, I'm stuck here at least for the time being, with all my basic needs on Maslow's hierarchy covered, but left by Medicaid with just $200/mo to cover anything above that. Truthfully, more than just food, water and shelter are covered, I also have 60 channels of cable to watch and free internet. Also a room with some weights and therabands where I go in to do some therapy.
However, since quitting booze, I drink about a 6 pack of Coke/day which costs $7. That is $210 right there. My cell phone bill is $30/mo. I buy a couple of quarts of coffee ice cream and a couple of cans of whipped cream a month for another 25. I buy some cold cuts and cheese to make sandwiches with when the food they serve is unappetizing, another $30. I buy brownies or mini blueberry muffins to have with my coffee. I buy some toys on Amazon. And of course my smokes, which I will probably have to quit again.
Since I don't really want to quit smoking or buying toys, I am seriously considering getting on the bus to another part of town and doing some pan handlinng, 8) I have read some guys pull in 6 figures this way. With an amputated leg I figure I am a cinch to pull in $20K in the summer months. I'm always asked if I am a Vet, usually I say no but they love the military up here so I'll make up a story about having it blown off by an IAD in Nam or sliced off by a Helicopter blade. lol.
Opinions?
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Quote from: RE on Aug 07, 2023, 04:30 AMOpinions?
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PM me your mailing address and I'll send you a couple bucks. If nothing else, it saves you the hassle of traveling across town just to force the normies to pretend you aren't there most of the time. Alternatively, do you have a PayPal account or anything like that?
Quote from: TDoS on Aug 07, 2023, 03:00 PMQuote from: RE on Aug 07, 2023, 04:30 AMOpinions?
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PM me your mailing address and I'll send you a couple bucks. If nothing else, it saves you the hassle of traveling across town just to force the normies to pretend you aren't there most of the time. Alternatively, do you have a PayPal account or anything like that?
Muchos Gracias! I PMed my addy.
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It is a horrible thing being without the comfort and security of a stable place, X2 when you are a senior citizen. I get the seniors discount myself but have the security of a place to finish out my life without much worry so long as I keep the taxes paid. I have seen people (seniors)who live in their car in rural Alberta, I don't know how they do it, I know I couldn't.
Quote from: 18hammers on Aug 08, 2023, 08:12 PMIt is a horrible thing being without the comfort and security of a stable place, X2 when you are a senior citizen. I get the seniors discount myself but have the security of a place to finish out my life without much worry so long as I keep the taxes paid. I have seen people (seniors)who live in their car in rural Alberta, I don't know how they do it, I know I couldn't.
Right now I'm not in danger of being without a roof, Medicaid is paying most of the exorbitant $16K/mo it takes to keep me housed in this SNF, and legally they can't evict me until suitable alternative accomodations are found. The problem is as long as I am here, they take every penny of my retirement checks save $200 in pocket money for the month.
If I had to move into my car I would be in trouble, since I got rid of both of them. I wasn't using them and every time I have had to move they were causing me problems. Also since I wasn't using them the batteries were dying all the time.
No idea how long finding a new place is going to take. I'm on 3 waiting lists of housing agencies, and I've been looking on craigslist and rent.com. Problem there is they all want application fees now in the $50 range. I don't have that money to spare. I alao have problems getting transportation to go look at places. So it's a real problem getting out of here.
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QuoteTeach a man to fish and you feed him for a
lifetime. Give a man a fish, then what. He has your fish. You have a
story, but no one cares about your story.
If you manage to get to where Anchorage panhandlers are raking it in, you will have great stories for the Diner.
I should add Diner to our name I think.
See : https://www.buymeacoffee.com/KDog Sign up for an account and let me know when you do. I have one on my web page. In two years I have been gifted $31.
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When you get the embed code I will set up a link at the top of the page next to our banner with the cup , '
RE's smokes, contributions are welcome.* When this all gets done, some articles critical of NATO might be worth a carton or two.
Find out what happened to Bentley?
Keep all the proceeds. I'm a worker (https://external-content.duckduckgo.com/iu/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fi.pinimg.com%2Foriginals%2F0c%2F70%2Fa0%2F0c70a09ef7422ec3b3b910f2e62b2e4a.jpg&f=1&nofb=1&ipt=ef7bdd828e9db9496ded09ba092ace22277828252455fa0c1d65d1bbdf2ebf41&ipo=images). With both legs so far. I can support my bad habits.
I don't know this guy, have not seen him before, don't know when that video was produced but know he is lying through his teeth about some of the things he is saying about Donetsk (and area). I say that as someone who has been there.
The video is 7 years old. Russell was there before Putin invaded.
Update: I did the work to add the RE smoke fund. The link goes to my page until RE tells me he has an account. It has to go somewhere.
RE: Let us know if panhandling works out.
Same here, not been there since but can say it was not like he is going on about regarding water,energy system and distribution from about 16 minutes on in the video. Claiming power rarely goes out, bull shit, not two or three weeks won't go by with out a failure either a dip or off for a 1/2 hour or so. Not really a problem, only a problem if it dosn't come back on as they would say, but power hicups not unusual.
No one drinks the water period! you will get sick, everyone drinks bottled water, The Donetsk water reservoir (its bank) was a popular spot for picknick's, no facilities, I have pissed in the grass myself that gets washed into the reservoir, no one drinks that water, and his going on about hot water distribution to all flats, what was more typical was the hot water boilers were all shut down through the summer thus no hot water at all for at least 2 months (some people could afford and install gas on demand heaters and newest construction had there own water heaters).
Claiming a 100X greater efficiency by a single hot water boiler...bull shit, there are more boilers heating hot water in that city than I have fingers to count them and the theory of district heating was fine in theory but the practice proved different. I could go on but no point, I would question all he has to say.
I got to add, just cause its so blatantly wrong, his comment about rural well water being fine to drink, I can only say maybe somewhere in that area you might find a good well but in that part of the country due to both mining and steel refining I would consider all well water suspect. I kid you not slag heaps so high you would think they are mountains and the rain run off from those slag heaps gets into the ground water. People still use it but only because they have no choice.
OK, for those of you Diners wishing to chip in for smokes and other essentials to keep me semi-sane here while the FRN retirement income I spent 40 years working as a wage slave to earn is being snatched from me by the sick care industry, I do have a PayPal acct you can pitch some pennies at. I have one regular contributor from the Diner days who still sends me $10/mo. My PayPal Acct handle is:
paypal.me/kollapsnik
I am also considering setting up a GoFundMe page for a State of the Art Bionic Leg that actually WORKS, as opposed to the crappy one Medicaid bought for $26K which is worthless. Pegleg with a Piano Hinge. There's a REASON you never see cripples with an Above the Knee (ATK) amputation walking around, the prosthetics are dogshit.
Here's the leg I want. Not sure the price, I'll take a WAG at $300K.
https://youtu.be/hCR4Gv2k4PM
I reserve the right to spend some of the money just for other needed devices like lift chairs, ev devices etc until I have enough for the Big Kahuna.
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...it usually is.
I located a cute little 2 BR house for rent on Craig's list at the fabulously low price of $1000/mo INCLUDING utilities right around the block from a Carr' Normal price would be close todouble that.s food superstore, close to a major bus route in a nice neighborhood. Single story with no steps and a garage for my scooter. Big yard to BBQ.
As usual the rentier wanted a $50 application fee, before I could even get inside to check out if the plumbing works and the bathroom was big enough for me to maneuver my electric wheelchair. With only $200/mo in spending money, if I have to pay an app fee for every place I want to check out, I will quickly spend down the money I have reserved for 1st mo rent, security, moving expenses and some new used furniture.
First thing besides the amazing price that makes me suspicious is rentier doesn't answer voice calls, only responds to texts. Then in texting she says she is trying to rent it herself because she was trying to sell it but the broker was not honest. Then she tells me there is nobody here with the keys to show it. So wait a minute...even AFTER I pay the app fee, how do I look at it before actually signing a lease and sending her $2000? She tells me she will try to send the keys to a friend, unless he is out of town. At this point I am pretty sure this is a scam.
I go online to look up property information, and the owner name does not match her name. Current assessment on the property is $1.3M !!!! This house was built in 1954 and looks every minute of it. You can look it up yourself on Google, 1404 Nanuka Dr, Anchorage AK 99504.
So at this point I am not even going to send the %50 app fee, because despite being just perfect for me at the right price, it's just too dicey. How do I know she is even going to pay the gas & electric?
I am however trying to figure out what is going on here? Why does this old tiny 2 BR house have a $1.3M property assessment value on it? Who is this woman trying to rent it out on the sly? I'm guessing the property is in probate, maybe her mother died and she wants to sell but mom had debts and there are claims on the money. Why the absurd valuation on it? So it doesn't sell, forcing her to keep paying taxes and keep the utilities on so it is not declared abandoned and repoed by the court?
I am however losing hope on finding an apartment besides waiting for one of these big housing agencies with the long waiting lists call me up. Getting out to go look at places is very difficult, and the application fees are a killer. Starting Sept 1st the day after my birthday, I will try to not buy any supplementary foods or drinks, quit smoking again and cancel my Amazon Prime subscription for the duration until my name finally makes it to the top of some waiting list.
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1601 Atkinson De. Anchorage, AK 99504 is less than a quarter mile away.
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For sale. $345,000
Quote from: K-Dog on Aug 18, 2023, 08:23 PM1601 Atkinson De. Anchorage, AK 99504 is less than a quarter mile away.
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For sale. $345,000
Although I have improved my credit rating now enough to be deemed worthy of a $5000 unsecured Visa card from my credit union, I doubt I could get a mortgage for a $345,000 house. That would take a minimum down payment of say 10%, $35K I don't have. Besides as I have mentioned many times, I am philosophically against property ownership.
Further research on the rental house indicates the woman is in fact the owner, but Zillow reports the property as Sale Pending with a sale price of $250K, which seems more reasonable.. Obviously there is some conflict over the property, and I sure do not want a house rented and then sold from under me and get evicted. That is a fast track to finishing my days as a homeless cripple freezing to death this winter on the streets or in the parks of Anchorage Alaska. I'd rather not add my name to the roll call of this winter's homeless death count.
On the Good Newz side, I got a letter from Alaska Housing that I am now on their waiting list for 2 of their Senior Projects, Chugach Manor & Chugach View. The latter has a waiting list estimated at 1-3 months, which if true is very waitable. Good location, right next to the Anchorage Senior Center. I hope to get over there soon to check it out.
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QuoteBesides as I have mentioned many times, I am philosophically against property ownership.
Private property yes, but personal property is fine. You can even own a home and be socialist if you live in the thing, and don't rent it out. A home like a toothbrush has use value. Use value vs exchange value. In America people can own anything except other people, and even that was legal a century and a half ago. In America moral qualms about ownership is a white buffalo, and money owns everyone. Confusion about ownership morality, and the lack of any in America is normal.
I found the house close by to show that the one for rent is allegedly assessed at triple what it should be.
Quote from: K-Dog on Aug 19, 2023, 01:32 AMQuoteBesides as I have mentioned many times, I am philosophically against property ownership.
Private property yes, but personal property is fine.
My philosophy is that of a Nomad, you can only own what you can carry with you. Since I lived a nomadic life moving from place to place and taking many jobs, never sure how long I would be staying anywhere it was an encumbrance to buy a house, just to have to sell it 3 years or in a couple of cases 6 months later.
Owning a bugout machine or tent is OK, just not the land it's parked on, which to me is all commons. I do realize this is NOT the case under British Common Law, which the Amerikan legal system is based on and was grafted onto this continent during colonization. My view is what it was prior to that when this was still Turtle Island. When the Mohicans sold Manhattan Island for $23 worth of Beads & Blankets they never though that was giving the land away for all generations into the future, just rights to use it for the folks who came in off the boat. To them the idea any person could own land was ridiculous.
The idea of land ownership came along with Agriculture and the sedentary lifestyle. That led to the towns and cities being built and what we call "Civilization". Nomadic people never had cities or towns, everybody just met at some designated place in the summer to exchange goods and people for marriages to prevent inbreeding. Where the Summer meeting was changed all the time depending who was hosting it in a given year.
Obviously, the world doesn't work that way now, but it will again in the future! :) I am just either behind or ahead of the curve, lol. Tent cities, living under overpasses and squatting in abandoned buildings is the shape of things to come.
For now of course I must rent my place to park my crippled ass to have some security, and fortunately I can afford it once my number comes up on the waiting list for affordable housing for old people and cripples, where I fit in both demographics having past the Age 62 benchmark for Senior status and had a leg chopped off to be officially recognized as a cripple. If I wasn't crippled, I most certainly would have been living in my Bugout Machine by now, touring the lower 48 burning FFs and looking for free places to park with the rest of the Van Dweller community.
Meanwhile as I wait for my notification, Medicaid picks up most of the tab for the exorbitant $16.5K/mo it takes to keep me here, and leaves me the generous ::) allowance of $200/mo to buy some cokes and brownies. I'm still a Nomad at heart though.
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Here we have a topic I am a bona fide World Class Expert on, Electric Wheelchairs for Cripples! lol. Along with prosthetics, this industry is overrun with people and companies who have turned an incredibly simple device into something they claim is so ultra technolgical and customized that only with years of study can a cripple get the "right" chair perfectly suited to their needs. Needless to say, this raises the cost of getting a chair (at least trying to use either private insurance or medicare) into the stratosphere, and only a few companies get the Gold Star from the insurance companies as manufacturers and certified service providers.
Here in the Gulag, I constantly hear the horror stories of cripples waiting over a year to get a chair, and like my shitty prosthetic leg which Medicaire paid $26K for are so outrageously overpriced it's no wonder they drag their feet buying them. I buy all my own mobility devices, and I get them for at least half the price and usually 25% of the cost of one Medicare will buy, particularly when you add in the cost of getting a doctor to prescribe one, a physical therapist to measure your body parts and a provider who will "customize" a chair to fit your body.
To get such a chair, a person needs a prescription, authorization from their insurance company, and a custom fitting from an assistive technology professional. Like a tailor crafting an exquisite suit, these technicians meticulously measure a client's body to ensure the device's specifications will match.
assistive technology professional is what the guy who sold me the leg was, and to get this sheepskin to put on the wall of your office take a 3 year graduate program which costs nearly what med school costs. $200K in student loans he's got to pay off by selling peg legs to amputees.
Now, the fact is, an electric wheelchair is just a fucking chair on wheels with a fucking motor to propel it. It's not a technological marvel. If you have a fat ass you need a bigger seat, duh. Footrests can be adjusted with an adjustable wrench, you don't even need a ratchet and socket set though it helps. They come with extra bells and whistles like lifts to help you stand if you need it or recline if you need to lay back periodically and so forth. But there is nothing so super special or custom about any of them, and I have seen many.
ALL the chairs sold by prescription by the companies that make them can be purchased by anyone withou the prescription, as long as you have the cash. Almost all are built in China, and your best deals are from the Chinese companies NOT certified by US insurance companies.
The thing is, many if not most of the people who need one of these chairs buy the whole idea they need it custom made and prescribed by a doctor, and their insurance company makes it as hard as they can for them to get one paid for. I fortunately was smart enough to buy my chairs before I got all my money captured by the system. That's why staying inside a Gulag sucks, because everything has to go through insurance and the reams of paperwork and lack of staff at every level, causing everything to take forever.
Everything on an electric wheelchair can be fixed by a decent bicycle mechanic with experience with electric bikes or scooters. You don't need an expensive post graduate education for this job, but medicare will only pay people who do have that ticket.
My advice to anyone past about 65 is buy one of these things before you need it and keep it in the garage. You can get a really good one brand new from China for $3k, including shipping. It's a good insurance policy even if your walking problem is just temporary, like a broken ankle. Also fun to cruise around on. :)
https://www.statnews.com/2024/05/01/wheelchair-repair-delay-numotion-national-seating-mobility/
After private equity firms gobbled up wheelchair makers, users pay the price in long repair times
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My main EV Cripple Cart that I tool around on here in the Gulag got a flat and I have been back in my manual chair since yesterday afternoon. It is a major pain in the ass.
I went to the pain clinic for my monthly visit to renew my Opiate scrip, and disembarking the Cripple Cab my wheel wedged up against the lip on the ramp and I think pushed it enough to break the seal. It was on the way back so no problems at the doc office, but back here I am stuck pushing myself around which I don't do well because my right arm is partially paralyzed and doesn't push well. I tend to go in a circle, lol. I have to do 2 or 3 small pushes with the right arm for each push with the left to stay straight. The distance to go outside for a smoke is the full length of the facility inside then about half the width outside, plus a small hill. It is slow and kills my hands too.
I have an electric pump I bought to be prepared for such eventualities, but for some reason it stops pumping after a few seconds when attached to the valve. Works fine if not hooked to the tire. Batt seems to have plenty of juice.
I am waiting for maintenance to show up to use their pump, which hopefully will work. If I have to get a new tire or tube or valve I may be stuck in this manual for a couple of days to a couple of weeks, which would really suck. The only bright side is it's better to be in the Gulag with this sort of problem, since I have help on site At home trying to get a guy from the one store in Alaska to come make a house call would probably take a couple of weeks just for an appointment, then the waiting time if a new tire has to be ordered. Just the housecall is like $100 I think. If you have to wait for Medicaid for a payment authorization it can be months. Fortunately, I pay for my EV stuff out of pocket because Medicaid wouldn't buy me one since they bought the manual and will only buy a chair every 5 years. Also, if you are in a facility like this they won't buy an electric since there is staff around theoretically to push you. Except they are too busy most of the time to do that.
Another sucky day in the life of an aging cripple. :P
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Quote from: RE on Jun 18, 2024, 07:17 AMMy main EV Cripple Cart that I tool around on here in the Gulag got a flat and I have been back in my manual chair since yesterday afternoon. It is a major pain in the ass.
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In May this was the statement.
Quote from: REHere we have a topic I am a bona fide World Class Expert on, Electric Wheelchairs for Cripples! lol.
And hence the value of "expert" in RE venacular. They can know everything on a topic...and can't accomplish dick related to it. Be it starting an engine that has sat for awhile....or fixing a flat.
I recommend less brains for smart folks...more accomplishments! Otherwise the smart folks aren't even worth...dick.
Of course I can't fix a flat. I have a paralyzed arm. ::) Even if it worked, I can't get down on the floor and get back up without help. There are TONS of things I can't "DO" for myself. That's life as a cripple chief. Your empathic ability is astoundingly low.
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I was working on the limits to growth web page night before last and I suddenly felt nauseous. I stopped and went to bed. Within an hour I was hurling and yesterday I had a temp over 100 degrees. Stomach pains so bad I did not want to be here. It is good we cannot make such decisions in such a state. Now I am getting back to human. And back on the Diner.