You look for an answer where none there is. Living with ambiguity is hard. A true master practices long to become comfortable with ambiguity.
Consider, that the stupid, unable to find answers for themselves do not know ambiguity at all. They cannot balance a pencil on its point or consider the nuances of argument. Nuance at all they cannot see. Off to it they are turned. Embracing contradiction and being comfortable with it is a skill that takes practice. The stupid are too afraid of the empty void to experience contradiction as it is meant to be experienced.
You also have no fucking sense of humor.